alex.
twenty two.
25MARCH85.
SINGAPORE INSTITUTE OF MANAGEMENT.
LOVE SPORTS.
WISHLIST.
laptop
printer
Happiness
back pack
good grades
trip to Taiwan
basketball shoe
new sound system
a good badminton racket
full LIGAMENT recovery
creative mp3 - at least 8GB
HAD BEEN.
June 2004
July 2004
August 2004
September 2004
October 2004
January 2005
March 2005
August 2006
September 2006
November 2006
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
October 2007
July 2008
September 2008
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
June 2009
October 2009
THANKS FOR BEING HERE.
Eve
Claris
IBP.. =)
AlvIn
Linda
Nui er
Ah Ron
Shevon
DA JIE!
YAK YAK.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Dear Jen,
I waited for one year, before i decided to write this very letter. However all the content inside this letter was form along the one year. Seriously i am at a loss at what to write now.. there is just so much memories i want to write out yet it is so disorganised. i also cant hide the fact that i dun feel much anymore, thus i have to resort to listening to a lot of song, especially emo song to aid me in writing this letter. guess what is the song playing now? "UFO- girl on tv".. i do expect u to know the significant of this song =)
This one year, i had alway thought about what really happen. Did i do anything wrong or say anything wrong? In fact the weeks leading up to 20/06/06 we were still doing fine and in fact we went out a few time. As such i dont really understand what happen that trigger the reaction u had toward me. Why had i set this one year milestone u might ask. but i really wish to move on already... in my mind it is not about having a chance or not since the day where we finally ended our super cold war, by being in the same bus home, you receiving the msg from the gals and me, receiving the msg from, yifeng. We walk home 2geter, after months of cold war and from that moment which we talk again, i know it is no more a matter of chance or no chance. in my mind i just wish to carry on with the very good friendship we had built by going thru so much. note tat i had say friendship, nth else.
I really value our friendship a lot. how hard is it to find someone of the opposite sex yet get along so freaking well, no backstabbing, can go for dinner and movies and jus plain old window shopping? that is why i was so disappointed by you in the past 1 yr. After going thru so much for the frenship, i expected more resilent of this frenship. Even if i might have done or say something wrong, u could had jus told mi. even if u r going to get attached or wat, we should still be fren right? i tried asking you.. i send countless msg to you yet u nver reply. i was the one making all the effort to find out what is wrong and trying to salvage the frenship.. yet u are just ignoring mi.
Once again i am stuck at not knowing what to write.. okie, Rem the time where in the mist of this 1 yr milestone i met u at the middle of the road near our hse.. i rem writing this down in my hp the very next moment after seeing you...
"i saw her.. finally.. at 7:35pm 16 dec 06.. after so long... yet the response is disappointing.. spoil my mood for the day.. funny thing though, the song playing n my mp3 was jian jian dan dan.. we might not had been able to see each other.. she had not seen mi till the very last moment.. and i was msging on my phone.. at the middle of the road i saw her.. for a good sec i glance at her.. she look like she was not ever gonna look up.. till the very last sec.. she looked up and saw me.. the face, e response, the familiarity.. all disappoint.. the look was like she finally saw mi, something she doesnt want to. i see it in her eyes.. somehow, when i saw her response, her eyes.. i knew something.. i knew that all the arguement, happy moment, presents, outing, phone call, journey home, carrying of bags, msn chat, support, frenship, tears, laughter, shouting, secrets and love doesnt matter anymore.... every single thing matter no more... for they are all gone... "
actually i saw you again 3 day ago... i was alighting the 190 u were boarding.. however, this time i really felt nth.. really nth.. i was quite happy to know that maybe i had finally move on.. that i dun feel anything much already... comparing what i want to write in the letter 300 day ago, to 200 day ago and finally to now.. i had cut away a lot of thing.. i decide not to write abt thing and memories which might make ppl think i still cant get over u.. that i still like you.. having said that, i still have to say u will alway be special in my heart... as a fren... a close fren...
i still believe you chose to cut off this frenship with ur hand.. i did all i could to salvage it but i cant.. as such i believe we might just have to end it here... Jen.. was a fren of mine...
解脫..... 是肯承認這是個錯.... 我不應該還不放手.... 你有自由走..... 我有自由好好過.....
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 12:10 AM
